Met up with an old Guildhall mate of mine the other day. C is now a composer, and fully au fait with all manner of music software. We were talking about writing, and he was encouraging me to explore a little more of that technology to generate ideas. I do admire people who use that software, and often enjoy music that's been created in that way. Frankly, though, the thought of getting my head around it right now is up there with doing a car maintenance course: I know it would benefit me, and come in very handy if I broke down, but do I really want to bore myself to tears? Not yet. In this respect, I'm a typical girl. A woman's got to be a typical girl sometimes, hasn't she?
In contrast to the computer, the piano, where I write most of my music, represents a space, mentally and physically, to be creative - to be something else. I'm not alone in this. I recently read a book that charted a lifetime's obsession with the piano,
The Piano Shop on the Left Bank. Now there's a real piano nut. A writer discovers and gets to know a particular atelier in Paris, and begins to relive his childhood interest in the instrument, delving into and exploring all its facets - technical and historical - as an adult. It has points of resonance for a pianist, although I'm not sure non-pianists would find it as intriguing. It's certainly a fairly counter-cultural memoir for our technological age.
For a complete change of headspace, I came in and caught the last part of Michael Jackson's memorial service on TV. Not a current fan of the artist, and ingrained with that peculiarly British aversion to sentimentality, I can't say I really entered into the spirit of things. But I was transfixed by the reverence and weirdness of it all - sort of like a variety show for the deceased. I happened to switch on just as Usher was starting to sing, weep and touch the coffin. I can't help feeling that if that was in Britain, said artist would be whisked away on the grounds of health and safety, and headlines the following day would read: "So-and-so dropped by record label for breach of contract and inappropriate behaviour" - or something like that. As it was, it seemed to go down a storm.
The commentating - by Paul Gambacini and Trevor Nelson - was also very weird. Normally reserved for state events or traditional annual sporting events (eg Wimbledon, just gone), it felt odd and awkward for an artist the British press has mercilessly mocked for the best part of his latter years.
Personally, although I admire Jackson's early work and talent, what I find most poignant is the story of an artist who seems impossible to empathise with, who was almost unreal - whether that was due to his ever-changing appearance, his secrecy, his penchant for the company of children and animals or whatever. To me, the ability to generate that emotional resonance is a key part of the artist's skill. Clearly, the man had millions of fans, so I guess a good deal of them felt empathy of some sort. In the end, the public displays of grief, ostentatious group hugs and teary performances of the memorial seemed a fitting tribute to a man whose life was all about spectacle - a man who, until the last, managed to reveal very little about the real "man in the mirror".